Raf's Travel Diaries

It's October 2008 all over again. But I seem to have things a bit more clear now. It's amazing, how things seem to get clearer every time. Decisions are easier to make, I seem to be a bit less scared of what others might think. I know what I want and I go for it. I hesitate a lot, but more because I want many things at once and less because I don't know what I want. What came after October 2008 was a nerve wrecking November and a perfect December.

Like Kids in a Maze: The Endless Path of Choices

Endless possibilities, yet I can only chose one when paths divert. There are no right or wrong turns, there is just the wonder of what was in the other direction. Sometimes I go down one path, then go back to take the other one, but it is no longer there or it has distorted in a way it is no longer recognizable. And I am lost, but it doesn't really matter. It's an infinite labyrinth with no map.

NO-tification

My heart sank as I read the letter. I had made sure I had two paths, I wasn't sure which one I wanted to take. This letter marked the end of one of those paths, the one which promised quality of life above all other things. The new one that lays ahead is very exciting but terrifying at the same time. It's unstable and unpredictable. I try to push the disturbed thoughts from my head, I don't want to dream about this. I'll analyze it tomorrow, now it's late and I'm tired. Raf (choosing to deal with it tomorrow, yet knowing I wont be able to take it off my head).